Happy New Year's Eve! Let the Journey continue!!

What am I gonna be doin goin into 2010?? Chillin at the parentals house with the fiancee..playing pool...watching the bowl games..and just relaxin...and im lovin it..haha. Reese and I are such old folk. When discussing what we wanted to do to bring in the new year we discussed goin out, goin to friends' houses, and then almost simultaneously we looked at each other and said "let's just chill" hahahaha...we're such losers. But the good thing is we BOTH are so we got each other to hang with so it works!!!

As for a New Years resolution? I dont really have one...its a good idea and all but if u know there's something that needs to change in ur life or that u need to weed out, improve on, build into, etc than why wait for the new year? Start THE DAY you realize it! Another day is never guaranteed and ya gotta make the most of the NOW so i try and make my changes and tweek wat needs to be tweeked with every moment im given. Now dont get me wrong i do plenty of these moments: "Man I know i need to work on my patience...buuuuuuuut im really irritated and this just isnt even rt" and i start playin the excuse game and then say ill work on my patience next time. It happens ok? Dont judge me. lol. And for the record God has worked on me and my patience level quite a bit...but im still a work in progress...still gettin molded to become wat my creator intended me to be...

Things that I HOPE TO DO in 2010 tho is to continue to grow in relationship w God, plan reese and my wedding with my mama, possibly GET MARRIED (but its lookin more like early 2011...we want a classy yet SUPER FUN winter wedding), take the time to really enjoy the wedding plannin process, and possibly get involved in the music ministry at our church, Crossroads. Something else I plan on continuing to do is digging into my faith and searching for where God wants me to be in my faith journey. I was raised catholic, but ive been goin to an "inter-faith" church for the past 3 years and i LOVE IT and have GROWN SO MUCH because of it, but i OFTEN have different members of my immediate/extended family encouraging me to "come back" to catholicism bc of this, that, and the other and they r so genuine in their concern and sometimes it makes me rethink things...like maybe there's something about catholicism ive missed and need to re-look at...i dunno...to me its just a bunch of religion...and i pray about it constantly and i feel at peace with my decision about crossroads and my growth in my faith and relationship with God...until somebody brings up the "come back to catholicism" talk...Now, i have NOTHING against the catholic church...if that works for u and ur growth in ur faith and relationship w God then RIGHT ON...but i just dont havnt experienced that in the catholic faith...and i dont see the need to claim a sect of christianity...i just want to LOVE GOD GEEEEEEEEZ!! Why am I questioned and why are people concerned about me just bc i dont go to a catholic church?? IM LOVING GOD, GROWING IN HIM, LETTING HIM GROW IN ME, AND ACTIVELY PURSUING HIM DAILY...in accompaniment with attending weekly service, volunteering in my church community, and loving every minute of being a part of such a great community...i just dont get how the religious sect can be SO important??

I still want to have a catholic wedding, tho. The catholic church has played such a large part in reese and my life and we have so much respect for the catholic church...it also would be pleasing to our families since the majority of our families (both sides of mine, the dads side of his) are catholic...and we really are still searching and still looking to deepen our faith...however that may be...catholic...or interfaith...etc. We just love God, want to grow in and with him, and we will do that in watever way He leads us to. I hope that we are supported by our loved ones with watever path we are lead to. And i hope i can find a final peace about it all. I hope we all can find a peace about it all.

Anyhoots! I pray everyone has a safe entry into 2010 and u treat everyday as a chance to make those "new years resolutions" a RIGHT NOW possibility. May God surround you all with His love, peace, and blessings...HE IS GOOD!!! So thankful for 2009 and all he showed me, gave me, taught me, helped me accomplish, and challenged me with. Lookin forward to 2010!! Let the journey continue!!!!!

Soon to be Mrs. Brown :)

HE PROPOSED!!!! The day finally came...I knew it was coming for a while (us getting engaged, that is) but now it finally is a reality and i got the ring to prove it! And it's BEAUTIFUL!! He did a great job...it's absolutely perfect :)

How'd he do it? Well here's the story...

Every year my 317 ladies and I have our annual Jesus Party (He is the reason for the season yall!!), and this year the date was set for Saturday Dec 26, 2009. Apparently, Reese had been planning the party behind the scenes..even tho i thought I was the whole time..silly me...lol. My 317 ladies had known apparently for a quite a while his plans of proposing to me on the day of our jesus party so he would talk with my friends so that THEY would then basically pull my puppet strings to dance the way reese wanted me to dance...so essentially i had a part in planning my proposal as well hahaha. Anyhoots..just for background he essentially planned the DAY, LOCATION, TIME, etc of the Jesus party (which i guess could also be now called the proposal party). Usually we just have the girls at the party but this year we included significant others bc we said we were gonna make it more of a "celebration party" bc so many of us had something to celebrate (graduation, getting out of orientation, a recent move, etc) so there were more people at the party than usual...apparently this was orchestrated as well...i been bamboozled for real...

REWIND to Reese and Jessi's first kiss....picture it. We are at the Kovatch house and about to play a game of pool, best of 3 wins. If he wins, I have to crawl across the table and kiss him on the cheek. If I win, he has to wear a Dwight Freeney jersey for a week. Result--> I lost. So i made my way across the pool table (no damage was done to the leveling of the table..thank ya jesus im light...oh yea and dont yall start thinkin i was crawlin all trifalen and sexy cuz yall KNOW i was goofin off the whole way lol). At the end of the pool table crawl/jig I went to kiss him on the cheek...and that turned into the first kiss. How beautiful right? hahahaha.

FAST-FORWARD to Dec 26, 2009.

Reesaferd: "You been sayin we'd have a re-match in pool...so lets go then"

The beautiful one: "WHY NOW?!? all my friends are here and i dont wanna go downstairs to play a game of pool."

Then, after remembering reesaferd stating that i ask too many questions and ill prolly never allow him to propose to me bc of all the questions i ask, i decided not to ask anymore questions and just go play the game of pool.

Game one. Jessi the fabulous wins. Reesaferd racks the table. Reesaferd wins. Jessi begins to rack the table.

The beautiful one realizing reesaferd wont even roll down the balls in the far corner pocket: "Dang you can't even help me out?"

Reesaferd: "You lost...u rack em"

As I rolled around to the last pocket..I reached down into the pocket for the balls and there it was! The most beautiful brown box I've ever seen. By the time I pulled it out and looked up at him he was on one knee, making my heart melt with his words, and tearin up (it was allergies guys really...allergies...). My answer? Well I sat and deliberated for a while...weighed the pros and cons... oh who am i kiddin i said YES before he could finish all his beautiful words hahahaha...i kinda wish i couldve suppressed my natural reaction to say YES just to harrass him and give him a hard time but i was too excited, the ring was too pretty, and i love him too dag-gone much.

"Everyone upstairs already knows...dont they?" I asked.

"Oh yeah" he replied.

"Well just for the that then let's play another game and make em wait!" hahahaha

After we finished the last game of the 3 (i lost...dont judge me) we headed upstairs and when we opened the door i had my closest friends and my family there with balloons, poppers, cameras, hugs, and shouts for the newly engaged couple!!!

*IT WAS PERFECT*

We both knew that a ring/engagement was in the future bc we've know for essentially our entire 2.5 year relationship that we'd be getting married one day (he still claims he knew from the first day he met me...apparently the first time we met he told his friend, nicole, "I'm gonna marry her one day"...and she actually validates this claim...i still think it was a lightweight, not serious remark but he stands by his claim that he KNEW he'd marry me one day). I'm so happy that this day was SO special, tho...even tho we both knew itd happen at some point he planned everything so perfect so that this day would be special and a memorable milestone in our lives. He's the greatest :)

Now we're just SO GEEKED to get the ball rollin and get married!!! I'd marry him today if there wasn't wedding planning to do!! I just can't wait to enter into a new level with him in marriage...can't wait to be MRS. JESSICA BROWN and the female co-ceo of the Goof Troop family (that's what we are callin out family...the goof troop..t-shirts will be available soon for Goof Troop members and supporters)

Now it's time for WEDDING PLANNING!!!! Not that i havent been lookin into stuff for the past 2 years hahahahha...but now i actually get to PLAN!!! and I actually will GET MARRIED!!! Oh im just so geeked...and SO BLESSED and thankful that God led us to eachother...Can't wait to start the next chapter of our lives as Mr. and Mrs. Brown :)

LET THE WEDDING PLANNING BEGIN!!

CHRISTMAS IS IN THREE DAYS!!! CRAZY!!!!! Perdy dag-gone exciting if ya ask me!!! It's such a humbling day...God sent his son to be born in a MANGER (not such a stereotypically king like crib eh?)..in essentially RAGS...and born the SAME WAY you and i are born (unless u were born c-section of course lol)...and yet this little baby born in such humble and far from king-like conditions God knew would be King of Kings and save us all. Not only was he BORN in humble and "normal, un-king like conditions" but he DIED a death that seems so unfit for a king. Atleast unfit for the worldly kings. It's just such a humbly and sobering time for me because in all my craziness, with all my mistakes, and for all those rather humanly errors i still have yet to make God sent his SON done to be born to live, teach, and die for ME...for YOU...because His love is just THAT GREAT. It just blows me away and while I often feel so unworthy of such love, compassion, mercy, grace I know that that is WHO God is and if I truly wasn't worth it then God never would've sent His son down to us. As I grow older Christmas grows deeper and deeper to me and in me...I joke around a lot sayin "HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESUS!" and wat not but i truly am geeked as corny as i sound bc im so grateful i have his birthday to celebrate!! He wouldnt have been BORN if he didnt have a BIRTHDAY...DUH! lol. Na but seriously...im just so humbled and in awe by God and those that sit to the right and left of Him and im so happy we have this time of year to celebrate because HE IS WORTHY TO BE PRAISED!!

Ok...sooooo i could go on forever about my man Jesus but now ill go onto my worldy things...lol. Soooo STILL workin on Reesaferd's stocking but making some SERIOUS progress! And wats REALLY exciting is he decided he wanted to make MINE so hes been sittin right next to me making mine while i make his!!! Im not gonna lie...i kinda doubted him....but mans a beast...lol...please everyone take a second to sit and picture maurice (a 6' 7" 235 lb basketball player) sewing sequins on a stocking...AHHHH ITS AMAZING hahahahahaha!!! hes the greatest :) It's been awesome havin him home, too. I can jump on him and attack him with my killer hugs and crop dust him ALL THE TIME NOW! life doesnt get much sweeter. We went to the festival of lights the day he came back and i really think i looked like a 4 year old goin out and exploring christmas lights for the first time...i sure as heck felt like it...when he kissed me i felt too young for it and i thought i was gonna get cooties from holdin his hand. Ok. Maybe not. But i did feel like a little one in wonderland but thats kinda me and him all the time sooooooo i suppose its nothing new so i should stop makin a big deal out of it. How sad. Anyhoots...we LOVED IT! it was a little frigid but our LOVE WAS HOT LIKE FI-AH!!! So we stayed warm.

Now I just gotta get thru work tomorrow. Then itll be CHRISTMAS EVE so well have the AWAITED show at Crossroads in accompaniment with SCRUMPTIOUS hot cocoa and then hangin out all day till dinner with his family that evening!!! Then...back to work but only for 8 hours on Christmas day...followed by driving DIRECTLY to indy for christmas din din with my fam-o and then the annual Jesus party on Saturday with my indy gurls+significant others!! Im super geeked. Then its christmas with his dads side of the fam on sunday...then work work ...then new years EVE plus kovatch christmas get together!!! THEN itll be 2010!!!! THIS IS MADNESS PEOPLE!!! SHEER INSANITY!!!! Time has flown fa real fa real! Tori (jaliyah) will then turn the big 6 on jan 3!! CANT U BELIEVE IT!!!! I cant believe it's really been 6 years...just crazy....anyhoots! Im gettin all worked up and excited but i gotta be asleep right now cuz i gotta wake up when its still pitch black tomorrow morning....i didnt intend to be typing/talking for this long...this has been a live broadcast from the lovely and fantabulous jessi...until next time...eat your fruits and veggies.

Pride hurts...and I got the bump to prove it

Ok. So I'm not gonna sugarcoat anything here. I'll admit it. I got some serious pride. Now granted I don't have pride when it comes to much but when I do have it BOY I got a hard time controllin it. And BOY does it bite me in the butt.

Exhibit A
So Reese, Nicole, Jeremy, and I are all hangin out at the apt right. Jeremy and Reese went for a run. Nicole and I chilled at the apt after I got home from work, and then I started workin on Reese's stocking again. Jeremy and Reese went and tossed football (i had to sit this one out...I think im gettin a cold...booooo) so I stayed plopped on the couch workin on the stocking and then i decided to be nice and make dinner for everyone (dont get excited..im not betty crocker...i made hamburger helper beef stroganuff...nuthin exciting...although it is QUITE delicious if i do say so myself! Made with that quality L-O-V-E! lol) Anyhoots...So reese and jeremy finally arrive at the apt. We eat dinner. We then precede to watching "Four Christmases" (FABO movie...def recommend to thou art fellow movie viewers). I ate some pudding. It was a nice night. But then Reese had the world's smartest idea that we'd all play a game. We were gonna play Catch-a-Phrase. Sooooo just for a little el historio about catch-a-phrase read on...the last time reese and i played catch-a-phrase together as a team we got a little rambunctious. Now when I say "we" i mean "ME". So what? I got a little loud and was KINDA yelling bc he couldnt figure out the word i was trying to get him to say even with my OBVIOUSLY amazing and perfect (DUH) clues and gestures...it was all in good fun tho! I really wasn't bein competitive that night! But that was when the competition was sensed radiating from him...it smelled like old bologna...and i didnt like it. From that night on the innate drive to be the #1 competitor came out in him and ever since then ive had a hard time playin any games with him. And not even bc hes acting competitive...but bc i know that ,whether he shows it or not, he HATES to lose and he LOVES to win...and i dont like when others get pleasure out of me losing...is that childish? Most definitely. Is that pride? At it's best. Or would it be at it's worst? I dunno...it's pride tho and thats the point im tryna make. I really don't mind admitting if im wrong, if i am defeated, etc for the most part...i am EXTREMELY in tune with the fact that i am OFTEN wrong (and ill admit it when i am wrong...even if its diffifult to state sometimes) and i am often defeated in games/sports/etc cuz welp...ya win some ya lose some. And sometimes I tolerate that fine...and wellllll sometimes i dont...it's just the way it goes. I do try my best and bow out gracefully but sometimes i have a harder time than others...Ok so before i start rambling im gonna go back to tonight and catch-a-phrase.

So Reese and I are on the same team right? And wat's crazy is just PLAYING the game with him got me all into it and competitive...its terrible...i hate admitting this...i was so weak to my competitive drive tonight. And for real...i MEAN IT when i say im really not competitive...i just have to add "for the most part" at the end of that statement as a caveat. lol. Soooo after a few rounds of playing the competitor in me was growing tired. All i could hear was the rapidly sounding buzzer waiting to go off and all i wanted to do was win...but i could careless if reese and i beat nicole and jeremy...i just wanted to prove that i was really good at both being the guesser AND being the person to act out and lead reese to the answer...it all boiled down to competition against HIM. And not even bc he was being his full blown competitive self tonite...in fact he was obviously trying really hard to not be competitive cuz he knows how i dont like it when he gets that way with me cuz of wat it brings out in me...competitiveness and frustration...so essentially he was bein Mr. Boyfriend of the Year (as he usually is...i def got a good one :) ) and it didnt matter to me the effort he was tryna make to change his inner competitor around me bc of how he knows it makes me feel...it was too late...thru my eyes all i saw was a ferocious competitor hoping to defeat me (remember...we are on the same team....) Now just to ADD in there....he def was competing against me (his teammate) to be the best guesser and the best actor/clue-giver person but i really have a feelin that it was ME this time creating the competition. How sad. BAD JESSI! So I have the little word saucer thing and the phrase was "bait and tackle" so i had to get him to say that...he was having a RATHER difficult time with the word "tackle" which is ridiculous bc a few rounds before i had the phrase "fishing tackle" to act out and he got it but this time i did the SAME gesture and said the SAME thing and he couldnt get the world TACKLE!! In sheer frustration i began to switch it up cuz he clearly wasnt gettin it...so i thought id talk sports to him (quick interjection...ladies...if u cant get thru to your husbands/boyfriends/brothers etc...talk sports or somehow relate it to sports and theyll get it)...i began to describe football and how if he has the ball id run after him and try to tackle him...SO in my fervency i began to run towards his middle section to imitate a TACKLE. This is when the damage was done. The timing was perfect. I start goin in towards him and his elbow comes up and ever so conveniently elbows me in my forehead. Bone against bone. I fell back on the couch half laughing...half my pride was hurt cuz he i was tryna be the best competitor and i get elbowed in the freakin forehead by an elbow the size of my knee. Not cool guys. NOT COOL. So immediately i ask for ice...i asked nicely...i realized it wasnt his fault (ENTIRELY lol). He starts to make a baggy with ice cubes in it. NOT what i wouldve got for myself. So I asked why he didnt just hand me a bag of frozen food or something. I quickly realized that my pride had the potential of getting the best of me so i apologized and said watever is fine but that bump was just the beginning of my pride's attempt to run rampage all over reese and make him feel like as pathetic as an ant's christmas dinner. Thankfully i realized this inner deep and UNWANTED rage and did my best to just not talk at all or just be short cuz i knew wat i was unfortunately capable of saying (good thing im atleast wise enuf to recognize it and try and work thru it right?? come on people im not the worst person alive i promise!!). Anyhoots...reese sensed my shortness and my obvious frustration. I dont wear masks very well when it comes to sadness/frustration/anger sooooooo yeah. It happens. After he sensed my frustration he started up with Mr. Wonderful again. GOSH DARN IT MAURICE CANT U JUST BE A TOTAL DOUCHE SOMETIMES SO I DONT FEEL LIKE THE WORST PERSON ALIVE WHEN MY FLAWS ARE HOISTED ON THE WORLD'S TALLEST FLAGPOLE! And just to clarify i am NOT bein sarcastic when i say "he started up with mr wonderful again"...he truly is so unbelievably gentle, loving, and patient with me...yes he has his flaws but im tellin ya...right when he sense me frustrated/sad/angry/etc it seems like all he cares about me and making me feel better. He gets so genuinely concerned and he really feels bad if he knows hes a part of my temporary mood. You'd think id be ranting and raving about how awesome that is right? Well i AM...but gosh darn it when i realize IM being a complete DOUCHE and IM letting pride get the best of me and essentially I ALLOW MYSELF to be the mood i am in i dont wanna be loved and hav someone be patient with me cuz i SURE dont like myself when im like that so it makes it RATHER difficult to let myself be loved by another...especially the person who added to my initial spark!

For the rest of the game time I didn't like playing....reese wanted to play on jeremy's team cuz he thought theyd b better as a team so i was with nicole...and i kept playin...but i really had no desire...i really just wanted to be pathetic and go to bed. Dont judge me. lol. I knew that all i needed was time to unwind (blogging right now is really helping hahaha) and gather myself back together but then i didnt wanna be a total sore loser and let my pride get the best of me so i tried to unwind still out there with everyone else. I dont want to be a sore loser. I dont want to be a raging competitor against the man i love most. I dont want this rather LARGE bump on my forehead. I dont want to not be able to play games with reese (although its lookin like that might be the case hahaha). I dont want to be consumed with pride. I dont want to be an ugly person. I want to be naturally patient. I want to be able to play games with my ridiculously competitive boyfriend without getting overly competitive myself. I dont wanna stoop to the point of just nagging at him bc I feel helpless and dont know wat else I can do. But most importantly im unbelievably thankful i have a mister who loves me for my pretty and for my ugly. Who can occassionally unintentionally bring out my ugly but then back down when he sees my frustration and change his focus to repairing my hurt and frustrations. It sometimes makes me feel WORSE about myself when i already realize the ugly in the me and then he jumps in with all his prettiness but hey...there's times when the roles r switched and im havin a pretty me day and the best in him isnt shining. That's life. We got our good qualities that we love to love...and we got our EEWIE, SMELLY, NOT SO PLEASANT traits that we hate...but we still gotta look at the ugly in the mirror, too...and hopefully change that hiding "DANG U UGLY" that lies within us all into a beautiful swan. I like swans. I hope you like swans, too. SWAAAAAAAN! Ok for real tho...i really that wat came out in me tonight wasnt pretty...and unfortunately God thinks he's funny so he made me LOOK a little busted too as evidenced by the welt on my forehead. Very unfortunate. It wasn't funny initially...but its gettin funnier and funnier as i cool down and the real Jessi is comin back to fruit. AMEN ALLELUIAH!! If the lump is noticeable enough to take a pic tomorrow i will and ill post it for documenation that my pride and my ugly got the best of me.

In the mean time...Im gonna keep workin on changin all that inner ugly that hides out and pops up rather inconveniently so that future forehead injuries do not ensue...plus i like the pretty parts of jessi in comparison to the ugly parts. I love that all of the pretty and ugly put together make up ME but i sure do hope that the ugly one day just becomes part of the segment of my journey called the PAST. I'd like it be something that made me stronger for realizing it, confronting it, and conquering it. Not something that mucks up my pretty.

Tonight I found myself in a battle with myself, pride, ugly, and all. And i lost. So now ill surrender and admit my defeat to my loverrrrrr. He probably already knows it's comin cuz once i gather myself together i always admit when im in the wrong...so im sure hes waiting on me to pour everything out, explain how i feel/felt, blah blah blah hahaha. I'm glad he cares enough to listen and love me tho. Glad I can get myself together enuf to realize i got a lot of pretty but darn it i got some ugly, too...and im glad i love myself enough to accept me for who i am but at the same time love myself enough to strive to be who i am intended to be. And im one lucky lady to have a God and a best friend to love me as well... ugly and all. I love him and his ugly, too. And I love me some God! But He's not ugly. He wins the prettiest of all pretty award. Show-off. lol.

Dear God,
i realize i was rather ugly tonight and i pray you hope transform all of that into something beautiful. I thank you for loving me even when im far from wat u created me to be and i thank you for putting people in my life to love me the way you love me. Furthermore, i pray your power of healing would be bestowed on my forehead thus to decrease the size of this lump. Amen.

Tis the season!!

Lovin the Christmas season! With Reesaferd back for the weekend andthe Christmas spirit a-brewin' there was a whole lot of christmas cheer spreadin thru our apartment! This was the first year I got to really get into decorating and this is the my first very own Christmas tree!! and reese's too!! And what excites me most is that this will be our first Christmas where he doesn't have a time limit home...when he comes back on the 16th he's back for GOOD! And hopefully he finds a job in cincinnati so he stays HERE! But that's a whole different story...back to Christmas!!!

We aren't really getting each other gifts this year because of money being tight..essentially all of his money is in savings and mine i feel like i never see hahaha...I just recently signed on the dotted line to start having 10% of my paycheck stashed away for retirement (crazy isnt it...retirement?!?! haha) AND i get money taken out each paycheck (pre-taxed which is sweet) to finish payin off my Lasik since I used a flexible spending account sooooo until i start pickin up overtime when im out of orientation my paychecks will continue to do their job but we def wont be playin the ballin santa clause! With every Christmas I get less and less focused on presents tho...dont get me wrong i love to give gifts but im in the process of thinkin up new ways to give instead of just material gifts. The ideas are brewin but no final decisions yet...I'll continue to let alla that marinade and hopefully have a new way to bring Christmas cheer for next year! But for this year I don't have toooooo much shoppin to do...But still got PLENTY of christmas activities! What I'm lookin forward to MOST is the festival of lights + Polar Express in 4D!!! I've wanted to go to the festival of lights ever since i came to xavier but never been able to...freshman year i just outright missed it and the other 3 years i had known/been with maurice and i said id never go until i could go with him so this is our year!! I see commercials for it and get butterflies inside...nerdy? yes...do i care? negativo! I also cant wait for the annual Jesus party with my naptown ladies!!! LOVE. IT. and LOVE. THEM. Ok sooooo i cant concentrate anymore...desperate housewives is on...and there is all types of insanity happenin on here...when i first saw desperate housewives i was like "ummm NOT my kind of show"...now im kinda addicted n love it..i didnt like it cuz i thought it was all about white picket fences and irritatingly "pleasantville type" people but the more i watch it the more i love that it...there's always a good message it gives out and it cracks me up w all the normalcy aka craziness that goes on behind the pretty houses and attempts to be "perfect" cuz its SOOOOO true...unfortunately there's this idea of the stereotypical suburbia that has infected so many...this thought that with seclusion in a "nice area" with "nice houses" and "good people" (aka people who make good money) there should be no problems.. i say "poor people...they r SO confused about life in general" haha...eeeeeee shows back on...ol gurl stabbed herself in the stomach n shes tryna put the blame on her ex-hubster...crazy hefa...i feel bad for her tho..people who stoop that low r laying that low internally...so sad...ok bye...LOVE sittin here with our Christmas tree lighting the way! ps. our tree's name is Tondo (pronounced "tawn-doe) for no reason other than i just like the name Tondo..Let your light shine TONDO! and keep entertainin me desperate housewives!!!

Geeked for my 4 days off

WAHOO FOR WORKING 3 12's AND THEN HAVING 4 DAYS OFF WITHOUT PTO!! I am so geeked for my 4 days off, too. Just found out last night reesaferd found a ride home for the weekend so we'll be able to...r u ready for this...we'll be able to go on our hunt for the perfect CHRISTMAS TREE!!!! OMG im so excited i cant contain myself...lol...ive never had my OWN christmas tree and reese and this will also be the first time reese n i go christmas tree shopping and decorating together!!! I plan on crankin the christmas tunes, maybe pop a bottle of champagne (or hot cocoa...same difference...lol) and go at it with the decoratin!

I also am gonna start with a new project. I am MAKING...yes making...reese and my stockings this year...I found this kit at a fabric store and it looks complex but the ladies behind the counter said I could do it so hopefully they are right! If not...violence will be the answer (my mommy n daddy taught me RIGHT! lol)

Other things on the TO DO list for the stretch off: Singers (the group i sang in at xavier) show, Jack's gymnastic meet (hes 6 and the cutest little gymnast u hav ever seen...hes my little man..ive babysat/been apart of their family since Jack was 6 mo and Jess was 5 i believe), sleep in, finish decorating the house, and go christmas shopping! I can't really afford to go all out w christmas gifts n buy something for everyone id like to but ima do wat i can! Life is expensive in case yall didnt know...n i dont even got kids to support yet!! yikers...maybe reese was right about just havin 2-3 kids instead of 4..we'd prolly go broke with 4...n kids n all the hubs and i WILL be takin sweet lovin romantic getaways for the 2 of us even with kids! we r gona make sure it happens!

Ok...time to start the day off by gettin BUFF!! ima monster...but dont be intimidated...i only unleash fury with ice cream is involved...or when i need to vent but reesaferd is the only one that gets that fury. It's included in the job description. God bless his soul. lol.

God is good. God is great. Reesaferd is my giant ape!! LOVE to all :)

"The Seriousness of Graeter's Ice Cream" brought to you by Picture This Productions...

Curtain opens. Jessi, being the amazing girlfriend that she is, is at Graeters buying a pint of cookies n cream for her lovely significant other reesaferd, and a pint of choc chip cookie dough for herself. After forking over the greenery and bagging up her goodies she skipped merrily out of the world's greatest ice creamery and hopped into her car, Dolores Merchinski. "Oh I can't WAIT for reesaferd and I to delight in the deliciousness of our individual desserts!" she cheerfully said to herself in a high-pitched and jolly tone. Curtain closes.

Curtain opens. Jessi has just made her joyful entrance into the apartment where her lovely reesaferd awaited for her on the couch doing his usual weekend football routine (watching 2 different games on 2 different flat screens).

"Look what I got us!" Jessi proclaimed as she showed off the pints of ice cream. "You said you wanted cookies n cream so I got you your own pint babe!"

"Wow babe...you're the best!"

(DUH! Jessi thought). Jessi smiles keeping her thoughts to herself, and then places the two pints of sweet lovin in the freezer for later indulgence. Suddenly, some of Jessi's most dearest friends in the whole world arrived at the apartment. It was time to begin to journey to their squeaky friend Cynae's baby shower! Oh how exciting and delightful! Jessi and the lovely ladies of the 317 hopped into the car and began their fun-filled journey. Curtain closes.

Curtain opens. The ladies are in Dolores Merchinski on the drive back from the babylicious baby shower. The ladies are talking about people making messes and not cleanin up after themselves and the irritation this brings. Jessi's cellular device is resounding. Tis Reesaferd calling!

"Well hey there darlin!" Jessi said with a smile

"Hey babe...just so you know..Nicole and I got into a water fight so there might still be water around the apt. Also, I left 1.5 hrs ago to drive back to school but I left my pint of ice cream out so it's probably melted. "

Jessi and Reesaferd continued their conversation for a bit longer and then they parted ways. Jessi couldn't believe what a coincidence it was that she was just venting about the frustration of people leaving messes and not cleaning up after themselves, and then that conversation bw her and the love of her life happened. How silly. Furthermore, Jessi was very happy that atleast reesaferd didn't make a BIG boo boo and eat her ice cream and then leave it out half eaten to waste away.

When Jessi got home she immediately began rescue measures to try and revive the cookies n cream. It wasn't entirely puddled so she performed CPR for approx 4 minutes and then placed the pint back into the freezer for her man to enjoy later. Curtain closes.

Curtain opens. Time has passed now. Jessi has been loving her occassional forbidden rendevous with her cookie dough ice cream. She enjoyed having a few bites at a time so to savor the succulence of the sweet, sweet ice cream. But one day...things changed for the worst. Jessi had just gotten home from a long 12 hr day at the hospital saving lives and changing the outcome, and all she wanted was to delight in a few bites of her forbidden love...the cookie dough ice cream. Jessi would have to deliver Reesaferd to Lexington, KY that same night after a long day of saving lives so he could get back to school and all she needed was a few bites of her ice cream. As she took the cute little pint out of the freezer, Reesaferd, looking innocent as can be, nonchalantly says, "I mixed my left over cookies n cream into what was left of your cookie dough...it tastes pretty good."

"YOU DID WHAT?!?!"

Thunder began to crash and lightning split the sky!

"You mixed YOUR pint of ice cream that YOU left

out to perish into MY perfectly fine and delicious

choc chip cookie dough?!?!?!"

"I don't understand?!?!" Jessi thought as she thrashed through the apt enraged. "What makes you think you can a) mix YOUR sloppy seconds refrozen ice cream into my still fresh tasting pint and b) EAT MY ICE CREAM, PERIOD?!?!?!" Jessi was furious as Reesaferd KNEW what the business was when it came to Jessi and her ice cream.

Reesaferd then fell to his knees and pleaded for forgiveness as he wept at Queen Jessi's beautiful feet. As Jessi gazed down into her lover's eyes she couldn't help but take him back...even after he committed one of the deadliest sins known to mankind. Jessi then helped Reesaferd to his feet. For visualization, this looked like Jessi telling Reesaferd to get his big gorilla self up (Jessi is too fragile, dainty, and beautiful to assist in activities that could potentially cause physical pain). The love birds then embraced. But Jessi will never forget that sunny turned stormy evening when her ice cream was eaten and tainted by the impurities of another.

Let this be a lesson for all. If you have your own ice cream pint and you let it perish in the heat, for then your significant other to revive it so you would still have some to nibble on...DONT...i repeat DONT mix your impure ice cream with her/his innocent ice cream...furthermore, if you are ever at the jessi/reesaferd/nicole/abitha residence and there's ice cream in the freezer, ask who's it is...and if it's jessi's....just shut the fridge and walk away.

THE END

Documentation of the seriousness of ice cream to Jessi found below: