the OTHER big part of this whole new job business is that the job is in INDY!!!! yes...INDY!!!! Obviously exciting bc that's where im from...got my fam there, my home girls (well...some arent there anymore...if only we could all get in the same area for once lol), and other of my peoples that im excited to be able to spend more time with. Not to mention i just love indy...and there's plenty of good hospitals in indy for me to save lives at lol
It's all so bittersweet tho cuz i love my job here at cincinnati childrens...im so blessed to not only love the patients i work with but i love wat i do and i love the people i work with...obviously sometimes work is the LAST thing u wanna do but once im there its always alright cuz i got fun people to work with...and we all work so well together...its def a blessing... and then reese and i LOVE our crossroads (our church) here in cincinnati...i HIGHLY doubt we r gona find a church like crossroads in indy...im actually gona email crossroads and ask if they have any sister churches in indy or something like that.. we just feel like everything crossroads is about and does we support 100%...the people r great (and its the most diverse crowd u will EVER see a church i promise), what the church is about is amazing, and the growth i have experienced has truly been a blessing...We trust God will find us a church family in indy as well tho...
Something else im REEEEAAALLLLLYYYYY gonna miss is sittin by the river...man do i love sittin on the serpentine wall to just sit and clear my mind...it is such a place of peace for me...even 30 minutes down by the river is enough to re-center me...for me, it's one of those places i go to "meet God"... and there's nothing like sitting by a slow but steady flowing river...
And then of course there's my cousins...i absolutely love my cuz-os and aunt and uncle...i dont always get to spend as much time as id like with them but i love the fact that we are only about 25 minuts apart..esp cuz my cuzin alex is about to get her license so i was lookin forward to the days when she could just drive on over with biz and their friends and just hang out at my apt...i suppose now they'll have to travel to indy lol
I really look forward to bein close to friends and family in indy tho...dont get me wrong i have good friends here in cincinnati and i do think that if we would be stayin here then those friendships could really take root...but obviously i got roots in indy that run deep and have grown over a loooooong time...they r the people that know me the best and i just love spendin time with them. I've always been a rather independent individual...lovin to be around people just thinkin im fine on my own and i dont need to really live in community with others and more than ever i have found that to be SO UNTRUE...i never realized how important it is to have friends and family around...people that u are truly vested in and them in u...someone to just kick it with...not bc yall planned a party or get together...but simply someone to just sit outside with on a nice day and just kick it...Reese has all of his long time friends and fam here in cincinnati and he taught me so much about the importance of really spending time with those people.. he doesnt think its gona b that hard to not hav those people around all the time like he did but i think its gona be harder on him then he thinks...he spends ALOT of time with his friends and fam and i dont know if he realizes how different its gona be now not bein able to just go play playstation 3 til 2 in the mornin with jeremy on any given night... im sure hell be ok but i do think hes gona see the difference more than he thinks...too bad ALL our friends n fam cant live in the same dag-gone city lol in a perfect world right?
i cant wait to b able to spend more time with my parents, too...esp my mom...now dont get it twisted...jessi is VERY MUCH a daddys girl...he is my hero and i will always be his princess and spending more time w him is gona be JUST as awesome...my mom and i hav always been close but more and more as i get older i realize how much i think like her, respect her, and find that she actually makes me feel normal lol.. watching her, talkin w her, and learning from her i realize how valuable she is not only for my growth but my sanity hahaha...and our relationship has been more of a mother-daughter relationship for all this time and now i think we r both ready to keep that but just be more of friends...just simply b ourselves around each other not always worryin about having to teach a lesson or play a certain role to "be a good role model"...just be real...flaws and all...love it...lol
i feel like a lot of parents feel pressured to almost be "perfect" for their kids...thinkin that bein parents means they gota make sure not to show any of their flaws...cant ever just b imperfect humans...gota be SUPER humans (aka parents) when all along they have been super parents by just lovin their kids and doin their best to guide them in the right direction...no need to think that becomin a parent means no longer able to mess up or BE HUMAN...now that my brothers and i are older my parents r relaxing more around us and its been more valuable than ever bc its easier to look up to someone who shows their strengths AND weaknesses bc we ALLLLL hav those...its learnin to deal with those things and work with those things that make us grow...not actin like they just dont exist...
so im really excited and thankful for lots about movin to indy...but it will be bittersweet...will b eventually leavin a great job with great people, an amazing church, and good friends and family here...So thankful for God's faithfulness, guidance, and answer to prayers tho...we have been prayin alot about where to "settle out" (indy vs cincy)...with reese applyin like CRAZY for the past few months and not hearin anything here in cincy only to start applyin in indy and get a job and hav it all go so quick and smooth it seems so orchestrated...and then i just started applyin in indy just to see options and see if anything was even available only to ALREADY be gettin TWO interviews on this comin friday (i talked to the RN recruiter YESTERDAY and all this already is gettin put in place) even when so many hospitals hav been goin on hiring freezes...just kinda seems like things r goin so smooth and easy bc the master is trying to show us where He wants us...and its makin this whole process so much easier...Ranck's mister recently passed along some of the most valuable advice for those waiting to "hear" from God...HE SPEAKS...and HE LEADS...but WE have to keep ourselves truly open and "keep the lines clear" to be able to receive what He has for us...so true...so so true...
Prayers are up for God's continuing guidance...and for Reese and I to continue to be truly RECEPTIVE to what GOD has to say...
And in the mean time i gotta work on gettin chels, bryce, and bella back in indy lol...
